Answered by: Dr Nur Syuhada binti Zulkifli
Hye doctor I’m 16 years old . Every day , I find myself constantly anxious and worrying , thinking negative thoughts about myself , thinking about suicide , trouble sleeping , loss of appetite for a very long time and not enjoying life as much as I used to . I think I may be depressed or I am having trouble with anxiety. They symptom that I have been dealing with is hard to breath , increase heart rate ( both happen sometimes and it’s especially happen when I’m at public) , sweating hand , chest pains ( sometimes ) , trouble sleeping , shaking hand and tearfulness. I did try to kill myself using scissors once but I’m scared . I have been dealing it for a very long time and I decided to tell my parents about it because it get worse each day and I also tell them because I don’t want to take exam it just because I can’t . Last Monday , I went to school to take exam and then when I see a lot of people I fell very anxious , sweating hand , shaking hand and shortness of breath. The next i didn’t come to school that day my hand can’t stop shaking , my heart rate increased , hard to breath and chest pains it was so painful. After I talked to my mom about it my mom went to my school and and meet the Pk Hem and school counsellor to talk about it . I was forced to meet the school counsellor. The next day I came to school and meet the school counsellor to talk about it . I have a session with the school counsellor for 3 day but I didn’t trust her and cooperate with her so she decided to end my session and ask me to meet psikatri instead . I also have my own reason because I didn’t trust her and cooperate with her . I don’t know how to say but it started a very long time ago . One of the reason I become like this is because I didn’t get to enter science stream class I get account class . It make me feel that I’m not good enough and make me feel so stupid . When I was form 3 I didn’t study well I always play and I regret it . Now I become so obsessed with my exam mark even getting A- make me feel like I’m the most stupidest person in this world . I’m been forcing myself to study for almost 24 hours a day for almost one year and I can’t stand it anymore. I cry almost every night because I don’t want to study but I still study . I’m turtoring my own self . I push myself to hard until I become depressed at first and thing got worse . I don’t even know if I’m depressed or anxiety but at first I though I’m depressed i did some research in the internet about the symptoms of depressed and I’m having a lot of the depressed symptoms at first and I just ignore it but now I can’t ignore it because it get worse . I’m planning to go the local clinic and ask them to refer my to the division of the psikatri department tomorrow. Do you think that am I really having anxiety or depression? and what is going to happen if I go to government hospital ? Even staying at home make me feel anxious and hard to breath sometimes my hand shaking . I don’t even know what to feel anymore it’s like idk how does it feel when you’re happy , angry or mad all I know is just I’m sad every single day i don’t even know why it’s so complicated. The last question , it is okay if I write a letter telling how i have been feeling lately and give it to doctor instead of speaking to the doctor I’m just anxious and scared to met people especially when I need to talk to I don’t even have friends at school .
Hello and good evening
Thank you for your question.
Based on your question, I understand that you are worry about your problem. I will try to help you.
For your information, you may experienced depression. Depression is a mood disorder that causes a persistent feeling of sadness and loss of interest. Also called major depressive disorder or clinical depression, it affects how you feel, think and behave and can lead to a variety of emotional and physical problems. You may have trouble doing normal day-to-day activities, and sometimes you may feel as if life isn’t worth living.
Although depression may occur only once during your life, people typically have multiple episodes. During these episodes, symptoms occur most of the day, nearly every day and may include:
For many people with depression, symptoms usually are severe enough to cause noticeable problems in day-to-day activities, such as work, school, social activities or relationships with others. Some people may feel generally miserable or unhappy without really knowing why.
Therefore, I advise you to refer to a doctor for a proper treatment. You can also have an online consultation with our doctors for more information and further treatments.
You can also visit the following hotlines for assistance.
I hope this answer will help you. Thank you.